I had a major breakthrough over the past couple of days.
Despite all my complaining, despite all my anxiety and worrying, despite the restlessness that hits me every couple of months like a locomotive train, despite a desire – sometimes – for more, I am content.
I am not even going down the road of comparing my life to that of others’ to say how fortunate mine is in comparison to all those suffering from poverty, natural disasters, major health issues, abuse, wars, etc. Doing that is not fair to me and it is not fair to them.
My life is good given the circumstances I was dealt and the choices I have had to make.
I am happy with my choices. Every single one of them. Even the bad ones. I am happy with them because I am the one who made them. I am happy with them because I have grown as a result of them.
I am happy with my choices because I have (almost) always managed to get my priorities straight.
I have struggled through issues of faith only to realize how important my faith actually is to me. (more…)