I’m going to need to make a mindshift happen that I think I’m going to find very difficult.
I don’t feel like I belong. Anywhere.
I know that I felt this as a kid growing up. But it wasn’t a problem then. I didn’t need to feel that I belonged. I was fine with how things were. I grew up in America. My Egyptian father made a point of letting it be known that I was not American; I was not one of “them”, even though I was. I didn’t know anything else other than what I was told. It had no real meaning to me anyway. I was a child. Things were simple.
I need to find a way to get my brain to think that way again.(more…)