For a short period of time, I had found my inner peace. It was heaven. I had made peace with the big existential questions of life by deciding it was all right not to have all the answers. I stopped allowing other people’s lives, interferences and reactions affect me. I felt focused. I felt relaxed. I had accepted that life would never be perfect but that I’m very blessed nevertheless.
Heaven on Earth, I tell you.
You know that inner peace? I seem to have misplaced it and no matter how hard I look for it I can’t find it.
I still know somewhere in the back of my mind that it’s all right not to have all the answers.
But some questions are really bugging the heck out of me. Not that I’m doing much to figure them out. The big questions just need so much time and energy. I’m tired of the big questions. I want life to be simple and straightforward. Why isn’t life simple and straightforward?
And then there’s people. What the FUCK, people?? What is wrong with you lot?? (more…)