Sometimes I just need to give in…to the weariness brought on by years of hard work, to the negative emotions that sometimes come back in waves as a result of years of unhappiness, to the nothingness that comes from not always having my children in the house.
I try to keep busy. I try to always have plans and adventures on the horizon. I keep myself physically active.
But some mornings I wake up, realizing that a childless, husbandless weekend is coming up, feeling lonely and just a little bit lost, and all I want to do is stay curled up in bed in my pajamas, under my warm blanket, maybe watching crap TV or just doing nothing.
Sometimes, although I do have things to do, places to go, and people to meet, my soul tells me that today is not a day for living. Today is a day for grieving; grieving people long gone, dreams lost, expectations smashed, self-confidence misplaced, routes taken and others missed.
Sometimes I need to give in and allow myself to grieve.
And then I drink my specially scented Earl Grey tea and the world seems to appear just a little bit brighter. And my soul tells me, “Why not give it another try? Maybe today will be your day.”
Inner Workings of My Mind 
Ah, we all have days like that. I read this after a difficult start to the morning and it immediately made me feel better knowing others have days like this too.
I have had a lot of those days lately. I have had a lot of big changes in the past year and it has been really hard.
But you’re right, maybe today is my day. If not, then tomorrow.